Denied Will and Gapped Emotions

Ceanne DeRohan



   The unconditional love of the Spirit is understood by many on Earth at present. There is another energy, though, that is also part of divine creation, which has not yet been fully understood- the divine Will. The Will expresses as feelings. The Spirit and the Will are partners in the body and must find their balance in the Heart.


   Having Free Will is the way God gave us so that we would be able to choose our path and learn from the experiences we choose and thus evolve into a full understanding of why the creation is as it is, i.e., to become companions of God in the fullest sense of the word. Learning by experience gives a deep understanding.


   Learning by experience is the best understanding of what something is for you. Learning by watching others, or by empathizing with others means that you accept that their experience may be your experience, too. This may or may not be true. Free Will allows each Soul to evolve in its own way. Individuals have put conditions on this. Putting conditions limits growth, diminishes health and all other attributes of being human. Judgments are the way the limits (conditions) are placed.


   The Spiritual Heart is a balance between the Soul and Will so that Soul (personality) can successfully live in the body. Willing this situation to be different will not work. This puts the person in the position of going against himself and others. Releasing anger causes the situation to change. This could use immediate attention, as Will sends messages to the Solar Plexus all the time. If these are ignored, Will is being suppressed and the messages back up.


   In Right Use of Will body is talking to Spirit and spirit to body all the time and unconditionally. At present, body must operate within limits that the Spirit has put on it (judgments against it). Anger, tears, sadness, and regret and other feelings of not being accepted are the most likely result from this at some time. Will only reacts against what is unacceptable to it that Spirit is forcing up on the will. Judgment by the Will is emotional. It is the nature of the will to be reactive. Judgments by the spirit against the will (body’s expression) mean you are being conditional rather than unconditional toward being physical. If Spirit and Will are in harmony, the Will does  what the spirits destiny path calls for. Will only doubts Spirit at times when spirit has not gotten Will's unconditional consent to try something.


    Allowing the body to protect the Soul in every situation can take some time in practice since situations on Earth have so battered down the Will that sensitive people have almost believe that the Will is bad; many people are no longer even sure what the body is saying since Soul and Body in most cases have been at odds for so long.


   Strict rules for children will take the Will in the wrong direction. Most schools undermine the Will, especially compulsory attendance. It is best if children go only when they want to. Try to protect children from danger and criticism and then letting them behave in any way that they see fit. In other words, turn yourselves loose and turn your kids' loose.


    Mastery of Right Use of Will insures survival of situations that are bound up in the undermining the Will. When all else fails, fear activates lost Will. Fear, blame and anger are all activated here, but fear is what forces the action. This is why war is so often the destiny path of lost Will. If you are conscious of what's happening and make your choices, it feels right to you; if you are unconscious and therefore bound to things, you know not why, it may not feel good. Will speaks the body’s truth and when attuned, harmonizes very well with the Souls destiny path.


   Taking love way from someone (i.e., making your love conditional) is undermining the Will. No one who undermines another's Will is practicing Right Use of Will. Love is the way of free Will and truly free Will then will allow all freedom and some seeming indulgences. They're not really indulgences though. They are Will seeing body's needs and then Soul allowing these needs to be taking care of. Taking care of needs is loves way. It is not loves way to deny body's needs and pretend that the situation is different or that it should be different. Accept your situation as it is. Then, if Soul sees a better way and it is better for body, body will accept it. If the body is afraid of change, educate it about the change so it can try the new way without fighting the Soul. Body fear means it has been dominated by the Soul and has not liked the results.


   Judgments interfere with the Will's ability to function according to the true needs of the body. Almost everyone on the planet today is carrying judgments. Judgments are the reason the body dies. Understand that Soul can still decide to withdraw and body would then die, but if there are no judgments, body does not need to run down and die. It can live here as long as Soul and body want to. Also, the Soul does not need to a withdraw, it can choose to take the body with it.

   Many judgments are made in a moments emotions and then, if not forgiven, these judgments hang around affecting all situations in this area. If understanding has returned and/ or even increased since the judgment was made, the judgment still takes awhile to dissolve and thus affects consciousness until it does dissolve. Understanding as to why this is so: judgments are thought forms attached to the thinker. Each time the judgment is made again, the thought form intensifies, and judgments are often made again, whenever we need similar situations. Judgments are a conditioning we carry with us that brings the past attitude to a present situation and in doing so, the present is affected and so not given full possibility to be what it is, but is seen according to what we have conditioned ourselves to expect. Karma is conditioning is judgment.


   A judgment is “not understanding” and allows that energy to act accordingly: without understanding. Thus, the energy in a judgment is not free and as unable to understand when understanding returns. Understanding cannot easily return to energy that “can't understand.” Accepting even the judgment as right for the moment, and a contributor to the growth that has now allowed it to be out grown, allows a judgment to be released with love and understanding (i.e., transmuted to light and wisdom). Most judgments are about ourselves; some are about others, the events, or the world.


    Understanding Right Use of Will goes with releasing judgments so that body is in the now and fully nourished with the light. Then Soul may still want to withdraw from body, or body from Soul, but it becomes a choice, consciously made and not the only path available.


   Anyone who wants to learn Right Use of Will can do so by practicing on everything that comes along, and then all is a challenge and an opportunity. Many on the Warriors' path understand the body is the home of Soul in the physical and are aware of the Will. Many, however, accept their judgments as who they are. This means they are bound to their behavior patterns. For example: I am not a good swimmer. Where as understanding allows behavior to change anytime the warrior wants it to. Observation of behavior would be something like: there is more I could do with my swimming. The warrior, being certain within, does not go up or down according to what happens around him. Lopsided reasoning accepts this mentally without actually practicing it.


   When this happens, mind has a reality that body isn't participating in and then the two are not in alignment. When this goes on for any length of time, body can get the idea that is not capable of keeping up with the mind, when actually the mind is only indulging itself in a separate reality from the body and not educating the body in this reality. Judging flesh as weak is a common way of doing this (“spirit is willing the flesh is weak, etc.)


   Some warriors are successful in closing the mind/ body gap by teaching body later after mind has explored possibilities. Some have been distracted by their mind until they let their mind Run everything, deciding for body what body’s experience will be. Accepting body fully means allowing it to try out and experience what mind is working with in order to understand what works for a particular warrior. Body learns by acting out and experiencing. More often than not, each warrior has his own particular way of doing things. This opens the way to excepting that each path is as divine as each other path and only right use of will (i.e., freewill) really allows each to develop practice and master his own way


   If there is any dis ease or ageing of the body, the Spirit and the Will all are at odds in some way. If there is a balance between the Spirit and the Will, only health, its looseness and vitality are manifest and the physical plane is no longer experienced as cut off from any other plane of existence. Everyone on Earth today has undermined his Will in some way. This undermining of the Will is equal to lost unconditional love, then; for anyone that is not excepting part of himself unconditionally is not truly loving unconditionally.


   The Will in many people is not seeking alignment: many people on Earth can learn the balance of Spirit and Will and are, in fact, already moving in this direction. It could be easily judged, then, that the teaching of Right Use of Will is not essential, that things will just take care of themselves. However, help for the process is actually necessary, and some people want this help so that they can move faster. Others who see little need to speed things up can make the choice to find this alignment later.


   To begin with, illness can be cleared by learning to listen to what the body is trying to say to you when you are ill. Understanding this message gives the body the most needed feeling of acceptance instead of the feeling that it is you against your body trying to defeat illness as though illness is some kind of sabotage to the body. Illness is not sabotage; it is the bodies statement that it has been having to hold the imbalance of  Will and that it needs release. If you can accept the message and regain the necessary balance, illness disappears and health prevails again. A way to work with this is to allow your full consciousness to be with the wholeness by entering the distress rather than blocking it, ignoring it or masking the symptoms with medication. With your full consciousness present, you can ask your body what the messages are and receive an answer about how to restore balance. Then do what body asks and see the results. If complete healing is  reached, asked again and do again what the body asks until healing is reached. This process will evolve all acquire the ability to listen to your body.


   Suppression of symptoms is not the way body heals itself. The practice of taking drugs for pain often masks early symptoms so that the person is not aware of the problem until it is acute and advanced. Then healing takes a tremendous amount of energy, concentration, and dedication. It is much easier to deal with imbalance in its beginning stages than to wait until it is damaging the body seriously.


   More immediate than regaining health for some people is the need to examine habits, which are running the body down. Another way to look at this is to make a choice between livings as you are for a short time or living longer if you are willing to grow and make the called for changes. Once again, this is a matter of personal choice. Right Use of Will offers an opportunity to accomplish more and also give oneself the opportunity to learn to come and go at will once again from the physical plane without having to use the birth/death approach. This allows the Spirit to leave Earth with its entire self rather than only the least dense levels of vibration. This is necessary because the physical part of everyone is just as much a part of the spirit as any other part. Those that judged the physical self to be base and dense found themselves to be trapped in this and they began to break off from what they did not love and leave the physical body behind when they longed for other planes of existence and found they could no longer speed up their physical body and take it along.


   More immediate than leaving the Earth at will is the offering Right Use of Will has of enjoying life to its fullest. This is what most people say they are doing when they indulge in habits, but habits actually set the body up for physical death. Habits appeal to memories of feeling good. Habits are a problem because they override the sensitive response of the body to a part particular situation and, instead, impose a ritualized response of learned behavior the person has used in the past, whether the present calls for the same response or not. Response from habit prohibits response that is attuned to that particular situation.


   The body and the body’s actions remain imbalanced unless the person is willing to respond to the true needs of the moment rather than taking a habit learned in the past and projecting it onto the present because it seems to apply. All habits need attention, for many; such as ways of breathing, making love, eating by the clock, e.t.c.; can be easily overlooked.


   Habits can only be released if a person is ready to see why the habit is there. All the feelings around the habit pattern need to be accepted and expressed also. Body needs to express its feelings about habit patterns. If habits are suppressing this communication, but intent is to end the habit of overriding parts of the self, it will be necessary to let habits lapse to see what has been suppressed. The feelings underneath habitual responses are often feelings that are being denied by the person who is using habits instead of true response. Then there is also present a habit of avoiding feelings.


   In this case, the person needs to look at his habit of avoiding feelings and decide if this is what he really wants to continue doing or not. If the feelings are allowed total acceptance and expression, they can begin telling the person what he needs in place of the suppressing habit forms.


   Breaking out habits may look like the stumbling block for many, but realizing the goal and seeing habits for what they are is going to allow the process through which they can drop away. The immediate goal is to feel better, to be more free and enjoy life more.


   Habits are to the body what judgments are to the consciousness. Both have a rigidity. Habitual behavior is a judgment that what was called for once is what is called for now and therefore, no change or growth has taken place. In actuality, change is needed to be constantly on going. In the same way that judgments stop and control movement of the consciousness, habits stop and control the movement of the body. Body is run down by this lack of sensitivity to its always-changing needs.


   All habits and appetites that man has had and enjoyed, for the most part, have been judged against as harmful to spiritual development. Lists of things to avoid have included alcohol, sugar, red meat, drugs, caffeine, marijuana, tobacco, sex, and extremes of any kind. The understanding is needed that the problem is not the substances themselves but the habit patterns and extremes often associated with these substances. The substances have been thought to be causal, but it is consciousness that is causal and nothing else. For example, eating meat, especially red meat, has long been thought to make men to dense to receive spiritual illumination and yet it is not causal here. The desire to eat meat has accompanied the consciousness needing it. Nourishment must match the vibration of the consciousness taking it in. All habits drop away when the consciousness is released from the need for them. In not understanding what was causal here, many have tried to break out of habits, giving up meat for example, by using discipline and control. This approach only causes the pattern of habit to change its form. The reason for habit pattern needs to be found, and then accepted and understood, not condemned and disciplined away.


   The Will is meant to guide you in this so that whatever is appropriate to it in the particular situation is what you feel like doing and also do. The undermining of Free Will on Earth has been accompanied by another habit; the habit of looking outside the self for answers. This habit has another aspect to it; that of denying your own Will in favor of someone else's concept of what is best for you. This imbalance has opened the way for rules and generalized procedure because no one really knows what each and every moment calls for by someone else. Freeing of the Will to do what it is meant to do is going to return to each person the sensitive and appropriate attunement to the self and everything that the self does. No amount of refining or improving standardize procedures, applied programs, rules or regulations is ever going to come close to the individualized fine-tuning that Free Will has to offer. Habits are attempts to compensate for the loss of this attunement with generalized and externalized rules and procedures.


   Feelings of being unable to receive the body’s messages or understand them adequately enough to balance the body are the results of a long-standing gap between the Spirit, the Will, and the Body. This gap will resolve itself with practice and the feeling of fear will dissolve as success gives confidence to the process. If at the present the fear is overpowering the ability to receive the body’s messages and respond to them, you can seek reassurance from others that already understand, but reassurance only helps if you seek your own feelings in this process also, rather than abdicating to another’s reality.


   Feelings of confidence and fear both need expression. The need to be allowed to bring understandings through the process they generate. Fear could be hidden in habitual dependency upon your helpers. The origin of the fear needs exploration and understanding. To not judge in advance what the fear is; yes feel the fear and let it give you the understandings. Release of any block improves clarity. Clarity improves communication. When you really listen to yourself, you can heal yourself. Then you can seek help in the spirit of confidence, knowing you want and need the help your yourself rather than being dependent and confused because you do not know yourself.


   Because of past denial, the Will at first may feel it necessary to test the Spirit to see if it going to respond to this message. In the past, many have ignored the messages, so the Will may need some time and experience in order to believe that this pattern is really changing. If this is the case, do not feel you should give up. The harmony needed for health can become the balance experienced. Physical plane existence can be as enjoyable as any other plane of existence if a person allows this to be his experience. The physical plane experience can evolve to include all possibilities and potentials. The understanding needed here is this: When Will is balanced in the Heart with Spirit, health prevails and you have the starting point for evolving in harmony.


   If you recover your own lost Will, you will find it much easier to change your reality to suit you than to try to change an outward reflection of denial that you have not changed within yourself. The present state of affairs on Earth is the result of confusion and misunderstanding about lost Will. Restore your own Will and you will be able to be free.



  The attuned Will is able to take you anywhere you want to go and has the ability to feed, and can keep you warm. Holding the condition or judgment that these things must be worked for is part of the reason that Will is not able to provide these things in another way. Release of these limitations is an important part of recovering the ability to enjoy yourself in the physical plane without having to work at something you do not want to do. Remember also, that the feeling of the Will is to rest for a while, this is all right too. Judgments against allowing yourself what you wish to do but you feel you need to do need release as these beliefs participate in the creation of your own reality.


   The judgments or unnecessary limitations you are holding can be seen your daily dialog with yourself and others. What do you say, feel and believe that keeps you in the prison of lost Will? The release of attitudes and opinions you do not want to hold about what it takes to live on Earth will open the space for things to change for you. Free Will offers the gift of a much richer reality and feelings attuned enough to warn you of any impending harm. Old conditioning does not allow you to assess the situation for what it is. Old conditioning takes the role of keeping your responses the same. When you no longer want it, you can feel imprisoned by it. Release of old conditioning let's present feelings tell you whether something is actually for you or not.


   The next step in evolving your own spiritual presence is to accept all of the reality you were meant to have on Earth. In accepting this reality, the unconditional acceptance of the feelings is necessary. Feelings balance the Spiritual overview with the Will's reality of what is pleasant and possible at any given moment. This balance takes place in the Heart and this balance creates a reality that allows needs to be met without overriding anyone or anything. If your needs are being denied you by someone else and it is not your own limits on yourself  doing this, then change your approach to fulfilling your needs; find another place and/or another way in which to fulfill them. Instead of making any judgments, give freedom a chance to work by allowing yourself to do whatever the situation calls for. Don't question your feelings here; allow them to show you what to do. Even if you are not balanced yet, remember that if your intent is to seek the balance of Spirit and Will, you are not going to harm yourself or anyone else. Instead, the alternative needed will be created this way. Being open to allowing anything is the process of creating alternatives. This process can create alternatives that did not exist before you needed them.


   Expressing yourself freely is the way to call for the reality you need and yet desire has long been thought to be a sin. In fact, desire is the magnetic energy that attracts the light and the essence of the Light is love. Love is present when you desire to make love manifest in as  many forms as there are. Desire needs acceptance and understanding just like the anything else that has been judged against on Earth and thus placed in a state of being denied.


   Loving acceptance for everything is the divine plan for all so there is no need to continue fearing that the plan calls for anything else. Bondage to others, strife, struggle, starvation, and scarcity are not the way of limitless love. There are the manifestations of a plan expressing itself as best it can within the limits man has placed on it. Is it not logical then, the self will provide it if it is allowed to, since this is loves way?


   Feelings of being undeserving must be released also. Judging yourself to be more deserving or less deserving than others is not being open to what is simply appropriate. Feelings of superiority or inferiority are out of-balance. Love  accepts all as  perfect, and yet love loves everything exactly as it needs to be loved and as it can accept love. The path of recovering the balance of Spirit and Will in the Heart will show you that your own right place can be recognized by you because it will feel just perfect to you. Finding your own right place is an outer reflection of finding your own inner balance. Finding inner balance is going to create an outer reality that will match it. The path to your own inner balance will be reflected by changes in your outer life. In freeing your own Will, you cannot help but have outer reality respond to you.


   Each person needs Right Use of Will; only each person needs to decide for himself how it will be practiced and when it is time to begin. Right Use of Will works if you know that it is the path for you. Will is the receiver of the Spirit, so the Will is more than ready to practice Right Use of Will. It is the Spirit that must accept the question of when the gifts of the physical plane, which stem from the alignment of Spirit and Will, are to be sought.


   Many people have misunderstandings that Right Use of Will is too hard to do or means giving up habits in a spirit of sacrifice or self denial. However, it is not as hard to free your Will as it is to live in a Body that has to carry blockage, resistance, denial and rigidity of an imprisoned Will. Feeling that the healing or recovery of the Will is too hard is part of the illusion that keeps the physical plane of the Earth seemingly separate from the other planes. This goes along with the belief that gifts are the reward of much dedication and hard work. The  release of this judgment is necessary. Many of Earths spiritual teachers have said this because they believe in separations that are not real or because they are confused and have taken the path of struggle. The understanding needed here is this: there is no reason to believe you cannot attune your Will and your Spirit if you want to. This really can be done by anyone who decides to dedicate themselves to accomplishing it. Your Intent determines whether you have success or not.


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