Exercises for the Integrated Self
Prelude to Ascension
Janet McClure/Vywamus
Pages 340-349
Exercises for the Integrated Self
Now I want to give you several techniques that will be valuable when you need to use them. As you work with these exercises, I am sure you will begin to glimpse for yourself what a co creator does. These exercises are actually the ones we use for those of you approaching the co creator level. If you are not yet quite at that point of close approach, this is a look ahead from which you can absorb all that you are ready for.
Exercise one:
I would like to have you imagine a circle-- a circle as large as this room will contain. Move yourself physically into the center of the circle. The circle appears as a beautiful blue energy that is literally pulsing. Stay in touch with that circle until you can sense its pulsing, its rhythm, and its breath. You might want to set a beat by clapping your hands or tapping your foot. Each of you will get a slightly different beat. The beat of the cosmic Heart will be established through this. The circle represents the pulsing rhythm of the cosmos. You sit there and you establish that rhythm-what ever is right for you. Get in touch with that rhythm-your rhythm.
As that rhythm is established, something very interesting happens. Into the beautiful blue circle several other colors begin to appear, until the blue becomes like a framework around the edge of the circle. Pink may enter the blue, or some orange or green or violet, and there will be an iridescence. Eventually you will see a circle of rainbow colors that begins to move. Probably the circle will also begin to move in a counterclockwise direction; there is a going back to what has already come forward, so the counter clockwise motions symbolize is a return trip. Now, this is a moving meditation exercise. If your eyes are closed you may become physically dizzy, so keep your eyes open. You can focus on a point or on the center of the circle.
What you are going to sense will come through your peripheral vision. I want you to note the circle so your seeingness will be enhanced. You are even going to use the third eye of your knowingness to see behind you. You are really seeing that circle at all of its points as it moves. It will go as rapidly as you allow it to go. Remember to keep your focus to prevent dizziness.
You are centered within that circle, and the idea is to sense that its movement is the integrative process of the life force which circles because you have created it from a centered space. You can sense a flow of energy connecting you to the circle, but I don’t think that is necessary. I would say what you begin to sense as the circle moves is a developing structure-not a structure that is rigid -- and you will find that the circle expands. As the momentum of it grows, it will radiate out until you find yourself at the center of the circle that takes in the city, the state, and so on to the universal level.
The goal here is not to lose any part of your circle. In its expansion you may find places that are not filling out gaps, so to speak. If this happens, turn the momentum back until the circle is filled in evenly again. You must through the expansion, remain in touch with all that moves within the circle. Do not allow areas to disappear or to become too tenuous to sense. See it expand into infinity, but be sure you keep a focus. The synchronicity is focusing on your individuality while you focus on the expanding creativity that you have allowed to come to you. It is the wholeness, the integration of wholeness that we are addressing. Continue with it until the works for you.
Exercise Two
For this one you’re going to put on it fresh pair of shoes. You might even want to get a pair of soft, comfortable slippers and keep them just for this special use. You will slip on your slippers -- they are integrative slippers, meaning that they are rather like rainbows. You can use what ever you have, but I want you to feel very special about these rainbow slippers. They become very special as you endow them with an energy that will almost make them seem winged. Remember, in mythology Mercury had wings on his feet, did he not? It is that sort of image I would like you sense. The winged slippers give you a very lofty perspective. By wearing them you begin to make a flying contact with whatever area you choose. You can be very physical about this, but remember that we are also talking about a much fuller and much more integrated perspective. Whatever you touch into physicality will be a light that illuminates all perspectives, so that if you touch into the physical location in the particular way I’m telling you to do, there will be a resounding principle of creation which you will want to perceive as much as you can. This is an exercise used by developing cocreators who have had quite a lot of experience on the physical level.
Now, not only do you have winged slippers, but you are able to become a “giant“ in physical existence. You can go forth with your steps cushioned by light. Your steps to not crush. “Cocreators have such a cushion of light, and that light magnifies as they step. It radiates; it lights up a specific area upon which they focus their attention. These are the cocreators who are actively engaged in creating your existence right now. They are actively involved with this cosmic day.
As you step, be aware that you are intensifying the light in a particular area. One learns as one is personally involved in taking these steps. As you step as a co- creator, pay attention! You may want to start very slowly. Place your foot in whatever space you are using, whatever environment you would like to step within. Have you wanted to step into a jungle with all its teeming life-past or present? Or perhaps you would like to step back into Egypt as you once knew it. This step is through time, so as it comes into contact with physicality, it goes right to the beginning-the base of all that ever was upon Earth. You can literally be aware of any level of time and space that you choose through this technique. It is going back to the core, into the eternal-now concept.
Let us become specific. Let us say we have selected Egypt. This can be as simple or as profound an experience as you want it to be. You can see, as you begin to step, all civilizations in all time sequences. You may see it is a moving panorama. You can stop it and stay within a particular time and space. Perhaps you would like to step out into the period in which the pyramids were built and Egyptian civilization was at its height. Take one step and see what occurs and where you are. Where is the Nile in relation to where you are? Where are the pyramids? In what direction to they lie? As note this, you begin to sense an energy stimulation. Note what has happened in the surrounding area as you put your foot out and stepped there. You stepped there as light. What has occurred because you stepped there as light?
You will find that when a co creator focuses a light into an area, there is a great deal of positive and beneficial radiation and the making available and igniting of potentiality. So as the step, pause-- stay right there so you can get a sense of what is occurring. Now, as you do this, you get the beneficial effect also. This is an actual experience where the cocreator level makes available the energy for you to do the stepping as a cocreator. The cooperative effort of the cocreator level comes into play and you actually create an effect that you might think you are imagining. It is a reality that can be as real as you allow it to be.
You have stepped and then stood still, and you’re going to note several things. First of all, the scene changes, civilizations rise and fall, and you get an accelerated glimpse of what we see when we observe the planet. There’s a movement; a building rises and then is gone. You sense the literal effect of the stepping process. You might not have known that when a cocreator steps, civilizations rise and die away. It is an emphasis of the energy, the ebb and flow, the beat or rhythm, which I am addressing here. Egypt with its time flow of regeneration and de- generation, is a good example. It was what it was because emphasis was put into it by a particular cocreator. You will note that Egypt was a little out of context with your planet’s history. The cocreator created the energy emphasis that allowed the civilization that arose and also allowed those of you who were there at that time to get in touch with the power you have for your use when you are at the cocreator level. Some of you came closer to that power then than you have been ever since. We are planning another step, another emphasis; I think it will begin around the year 2010 and it will stir up a lot of potential. Again, is not destructive; it creates a radiating emphasis that can be then accepted. This is what cocreators do. Wherever they step, there’s a spiritual emphasis that occurs. It is an emphasis of integration, of potentiality, of what the creative principles are, of love, of trust, of acceptance. It emphasizes every existing quality in a most positive sense. Of course, all you choose how you use these qualities.
In ancient Egypt there were those who were able to use the radiance and those who were not. There will always be those not yet spiritually mature enough to recognize an opportunity, who tends to feel fated to experience something less than the full potential of what is available. You might as you step, look at this polarity, which is in the fullest sense a balancing. Where you step, there is an energy flow that needs balancing, and the emphasis is connecting very high into the spiritual concept. There was in Egypt a dynamic that was in great need of a balancing factor, so the cocreator light acted to stabilize it. There are always those who can accept the increased emphasis and those who cannot-- a polarity.
It is interesting, then, to step and see what the radiation creates in your own universe, in terms of physicality. How does it affect your body? Know that these are more than just exercises. They will bring into your life a change.
Now the final part of this-- after you have experienced as much as you can choose-is a circling of the perimeter of all you created. This stepping around the circle unites and brings in a unified perspective of all that has gone before. Do this stepping around the circle physically. Get the movement going so that it says to you that you have indeed moved full circle. You are allowing now what you have seen, have realized, about this exercise, and it’s become a part of your life as you complete the circle.
I want it clearly understood that this exercise can be done on many levels; therefore I want to emphasize this by enumerating and explaining seven steps which can be used progressively:
1. Stepping and recognizing that the light emphasis is there.
2. By stepping you have stopped the level of change in an environment. What effect have you made upon one particular time sequence? See it.
3. Release and allow evolution to take place within this time sequence and see what effect you had on it.
4. Begin to notice that if there are responses in your physical body from your stepping.
5. Be aware that at the beginning level all of this fits together beyond any sequencing-moving into the eternal now.
6. Observe their radiant effect from your stepping that opens up the core area. ( This is perhaps beyond your perception as yet, but it can be learned.) See directly into the core of the radiation as you might look into an atom of which you are a part and see and understand all of the activity that occurs as you make choices that create a chain reaction in the atom.
7. Know that you have the ability to transcend and yet to use physicality as a uniting factor. You see all possibilities and then release yourself to experience that ideal level.
Exercise Three
Sitting in a straight back chair, raise your hands, palms up to about shoulder height. Sit comfortably but with your spine as straight as possible. You will begin to sense the energy coming in. The goal is to be sensitive enough to really feel this energy as though it were raining on your hands. You want to feel this rain energy falling equally of both hands. If you feel the left-hand is almost pushed downward by the amount of rain, leaving the right hand where it was, then you want to pay attention to the right hand until the two hands receive the flow equally. Sit like this for least 15 minutes. You need to be very comfortable, and the arms and hands must be free to move in case there needs to be an adjustment.
This energy coming in is doing something to the hands. They may begin to feel warm. The hands represent your receptive abilities on the physical level. You want to attune to the hands. You want to sit in a way that allows that quality as you hold them forward. Pay attention to your hands. Does your left hand feel as though it is warm and melting a little? Some of you might feel that; if so, go within and see what condition is being created in that. The right-hand might not share the condition of the left hand, but the amount of the energy and activity should be equal. Look at that; equal energy, but not necessarily the same activity on both sides. You might feel a sort of building up, a peaking, in the right hand, where as the left seems to be hollowed out. One is not better than the other. I just watch you to note and pay attention to is occurring. Stay with it as long as you can. Try to keep the hands as flat as you can to maximize reception. If you find the 15 minutes is too long, just stay as long as you can. Try this once in awhile. I think you will enjoy it.
The goal is to see that a cocreator directs all sorts of activity. The type of cocreator activity that we are talking about is the direction and diversity of choice that active Sourceness is experiencing; we will speak of the inactive state another time. So the cocreator is centered within of all the activity he has created, and he is equalizing all that creativity by his awareness and his balancing of it. If there is an imbalance, he adjusts it. You can start to work with this by adjusting two perspectives that are different yet equal in the amount of energy that you are able to feed them.
Exercise Four
This exercise should be done lying on your back. Wear clothing that is loose and comfortable. If necessary, remove your shoes and tight fitting stocks or hose. Keep the legs a little apart. Be completely comfortable. You can go to sleep in this exercise if you like-it’s all right to do so. Actually this exercise could be a stimulus towards going to sleep.
Did you ever make Angels in the snow? If you’re bed is large enough-or lying on the floor-move your arms out and make a few Angels. As you do so you will summon the angelic kingdom. In other words, the movement to you make in physical existence, acknowledging the angelic presence, will bring them in. You are moving in physicality enough that you invoke the presence of the angelic kingdom. If your arms get tired, just stop doing this exercise physically, and strongly envision yourself doing it. Now, the Angels are not necessarily going to come just through words. They are going to come in and directed by Metatron, by Sandalphon, and particularly by Auriel. As they come in , they are going to make specific adjustments in your physical structure and into the awareness areas that you have everywhere. You might even have a sensation of pinpricks and of having your body stimulated. Well, you are being stimulated by the angelic hosts! As you say to them, “I am learning to invoke the cocreator level, to bring it into my physicality,“ they will then make actual physical adjustments in your physical structure.
If I were you, I would do this technique weekly. One nice thing about it is that you can go off to sleep with it, because once you have communicated through your movement that this is what you want, then they will do it. I would like to have you move physically, because your actual physical movement is an invocation. Every time you move, in what ever way, you are invoking something from the universe. The more conscious you are-the more you direct the process-the better. If you’re sleeping or walking along immersed in momentary happenings, you simply get what that automatically involves. But when you inform the angelic kingdom that you are consciously reaching out to have your full cocreator ability stimulated, then that is what they help you to do. It is the difference between consciously working on your evolution and subconsciously allowing your usual programming to direct your activity. Recognize that the members of the angelic kingdom are the tools of your conscious directive abilities as a cocreator. You can use them in a very specific way.
You now had a break, and physically you are refreshed. That is important. Also, after you have concentrated intently for a while, you need a release on that level, too. You will learn to concentrate for longer and longer periods as you move towards the cocreator level. Eventually the concentration will be absolute, in an infinite variety. As you concentrate and accept the stimulation being brought to you in many ways, you will remain more balanced during times when it seems you must do several things once.
Exercise Five
I have for you now an exercise I want you to play with. We will do this one in groups of four. Each member of the group is to stand and put an arm around the ones on each side of you. Slide your feet until each foot is touching the foot of the one beside you. There should be a feeling of group balance. In one sense you could look upon the four as representing the four bodies, but they also represent aspects of self and of the cocreator level. Stand quietly and receive from each other the stimulus that will allow you to feel more complete and to recognize the cocreator level. The stimulus might come into the physical body. Be aware of any changes in the body. It might also come into the emotional body or the mental body or perhaps the spiritual body in your knowingness.
Good. You have been standing together listening to this soft flow of music. Now the back to your seats and write some notes. I suggest you spend about half an hour discussing what has come up for you. In this exercise there has been a certain stimulation, so through the interaction among the four of you, try to bring out what each of you perceives-- or perhaps does not perceive. Then use the group focus to find out what evolved for the group consciousness. Where was the group tone at the beginning, and what happened through the group interaction?
Now, this process of group communication is the cocreator level and it is the ability to use more and more that cocreator level. You all have certain degrees of resistance to it. All of you have accepted that the premise of individuality without seeing it as the gateway to something greater. Through your coming together, the presence of each member results in a balanced group and results in a group consensus about the value of the group. The acceptance of viewing this balancing integrative effect makes possible the use of the group as a tool in divine movement. Having used this exercise once you can use it now and then and it will become easier, more revealing and helpful. The purpose is the balancing of the divine qualities (whether within self or in the group as a whole) by sharing in the balancing process. Your perception of how to use the divine qualities is also being balanced.
Let us say you have a group that has an area needing attention and exploration because of an imbalance. Come together in groups of four and focus on that particular area. Perhaps an organization has a need to stimulate and be stimulated by a greater number of people. The energy of the organization surrounds humanity widely, but as it reaches into humanity it seems to bounce off humanity. You might say humanity doesn’t recognize who you are. Standing in groups of four, each member will represent a perspective of relationship to humanity-for in truth you do. Consider this area we have mentioned. Bring up a consciousness and talk together about relationship to humanity. All the groups of four can then come together and integrate the considered opinion of each into an organizational consensus.
It would be revealing to explore different individual qualities that would be valuable contributions to a group or organization of any size. Each quality as a rather awesome correspondence on the cocreator level, and each of you is connected with and integrating your own specialty. Here’s a partial list of those you can identify with and make use of now on the physical level:
1. Conceptual strength which can bring forth the practical tools for members (or humanity) to use.
2. Enthusiasm and energy to grasp the flow that contains joy and abundance.
3. Practicality and willingness to serve; a sense of caring and sharing; a sense of purposeful, directed activity.
4. Networking and connecting—a generalists viewpoint that brings specialists together.
5. Transmitting-stepping down-spiritual or cosmic energies to be used on the physical.
6. Nurturing of ones self as well as of others, which allows an integrative statement to emerge.
7. Integration-the ability to listen and make the response that helps others put it altogether.
8. Leadership; the willingness to assume authority.
Before we go on to the next exercise, I would like to briefly address the question of authority. Some of you say, “why do I have, on the physical level, this experience of being under rules and regulations imposed on me by leaders? The mental body wants to know. Why is it that rules and regulations coming from government levels still affect me? “Having this trouble with authority on the physical level seems to take you out of the contact you really want with the spiritual. Many people use this as an excuse not to understand or accept the necessity to go through a step-by-step process in your associations. Authority figures give you the amount of allowingness that you can expect for yourself. They mirror that to you. Thus in your country and the IRS says that such and such rules apply to you. The IRS has been given, by a higher authority, certain control over specific areas that affect your life, and to a degree you have to accept their level of authority.
Generally speaking this means that the cocreator level is reflecting down to the physical plane, and you all, in your associations with each other within your country, are giving energy, or authority, to certain structures and groups and being affected by what you believe about such authority. If you are called in to the IRS to be audited, you might feel some fear of what they might do. In observing the IRS and its functions, I would say that about 80 percent of the time what occurs in an audit is very positive and you find that nothing terrible is going to happen to you. Eighty percent of the time an audit is a further communication with the system to make sure all is understood on both sides. My point is that as you deal with authority, if you get together on communication, a great deal of what appears as the limiting factor may in fact be amenable to an opening to expansion to another level of acceptance in the area of authority. They other 20 percent may indeed hold an area of deep resistance that must be recognized and dealt with.
The ultimate authority is Source itself, is it not? I am opening up this matter so you can look at it is you go along. I feel that you and others also have not yet a full understanding of the responsibility assumed by a cocreator from the creator level. You don’t as yet recognize what a cocreator does. You would like to just step into that recognition, but it actually will unfold gradually: an understanding of the authority of the creator level in relationship to the cocreator level. So what I am trying to let you all see is that there is an ultimate level of “reporting,“ if you will. As you live your life in regard to every experience and your relationship with other people, you are clearing your association into a greater understanding. An expansion into knowing what that basic level is. It will take time for you to come into full understanding of what I’m saying, but sharing it will open the way. You might consider your fear of an authority figure to represent a fear of the ultimate authority of Source. I think it is not so much a fear of Sourceness as it is a matter of not comprehending the relationship between the cocreator level-you—and the Source level. You do not see what is required or demanded and what is not. You have created assumptions about what the Source expects of you. Some of your assumptions are true, but many, even most, are not. Most of it is an illusion. Most of it is trying to understand too much from an individual perspective. You all recognize some of this, don’t you? We are intimately trying to understand the one who created us. We have accepted something from that One, but we aren’t quite sure what.
Now, many people would like to do away with the IRS, but if you remove the structure you have to replace it with something else. So our wanting to remove it is a reflection of our nonunderstanding or nonclarity about the Source. A group consciousness has created it, so the collective consciousness must understand more clearly that area of authority for which it has responsibility. It must specifically clear in that area; it must go through the process of change-- and I feel that is occurring. For awhile that change can be seen to be a loss, and that’s what you are all facing this year( election-year, 1988). It is the changing of that structure, the authority figure, to which you have given the responsibility for governing your lives. There is a lot of fear about that, isn’t there? There is fear on a very deep level about what is coming. Remember, however, that the outcome of events or the granting of authority reflects a group consciousness to which each individual has had an opportunity on some level to contribute-- or not. Therefore, each carries a share of the responsibility for that outcome.